March 18, 2008


I feel as if God is just HITTING me with so much in the last few days. He is doing is best to point out ALL of my faults (ok, not nearly all, but so many that it's overwhelming me) to me, and still calling me to do things. I'm overwhelmed with the bitterness that he has shown me in my life. I need to let go of it, I don't want to be a bitter person. Not kidding, bitterness has come up at least 3-4 times in the last week alone for me... just shoving it in my face. I guess I always ask HIM to be clear, I don't take hints all that well!

I want to be fruitful, I don't want to be like the fig tree in Matthew 21:18-22 that doesn't bear fruit, but appears to be. I have felt God calling me and preparing me for something recently that I'm still questioning, but last night I felt him even stronger than ever before, so I took a "little" action and am leaving it up to him to figure out the rest. If it's his will/his time he will provide all the details. In the meantime if you would be willing to pray that I am acting on his will and not my own and that he would give me VERY CLEAR direction I would really appreciate it! I'm not ready to share the details of any of this right now, so if you are one of the very very very few people who do know, please don't share!

If you don't attend BSF and would like to try it out (I highly reccomend it and I know a few other poeple do to), the Saturday after spring break there is an intro (April 14) for new people to attend. They only have these class nights once per month and this is the last one that would allow you to join the class this year, otherwise there are other intro classes on May 5 and 12, but you would have to wait until next year to actually start attending classes regularly (which, if you can't make the April one I still highly recommend). I highly recommend the intro on 4/14 so that you get a taste of BSF before summer, it's only 5 more classes after that intro before summer break starts, so it's not that big of a committment anymore for this year!


Beck said...

That root of bitterness is such a stubborn one... put me on the list of pray-ers! :) And hey, don't think of it as an attack... think of it as God's aggressive campaign to grow you! Also, for anyone reading, I second the BSF recommendation. Life-changing!

S Huiz said...

I third the BSF recommendation- SUCH COOL things develop!

Excited for you that God is so clear in what he wants you to know about yourself. You will be in my prayers a lot this week!