March 3, 2009

Complaints... or not

I have been trying soooo hard not to complain so much, and please know that while I sometimes feel like I have a lot to complain about right now, I know that others have it much much worse and I truly have it pretty good.

When someone asks "How are you", I try not to be too honest... but sometimes something slips out and it's like the floodgates open. (Sorry if you've been the recipient of that complaining).

Poor Matt, he gets to hear the majority of what I have to complain about, but I'm pretty sure he's immune to it now and has no sympathy what-so-ever. I wish he could be pregnant for a week, just to see, because without this experience how could one EVER know? And really, not just the first time, b/c that wasn't so bad, heck the second and third times weren't so bad, it's just THIS TIME!

I'm resisting all urges right now to make you a list of all the things I find uncomfortable and irritating right now... b/c you don't really care, I shouldn't have to share them with you to feel validated, most of you have caught on to the fact that I don't sleep so what's the use re-writing it again? Instead I'm going to look forward to the next few days and the warming trend that the weather man is predicting. I'm going to look forward to a weekend with just my husband and be so thankful for a friend that willingly volunteered (at her own free will, didn't even have to ask, how great is that?) to take my kids so we could get away before the baby arrives. I'm going to be thankful that I'm still alive after getting pushed off the road on the way to Grand Rapids once again (yup, that's 3 times in 2 trips). I'm going to be thankful that my kids are relatively healthy for the moment, that I didn't get the flu instead of a cold, that we have a little food in our fridge and cupboards (gotta get groceries), that I have the heat on in my little house so I don't freeze, that I have a wonderful husband that is so good about helping out around the house above and beyond what he normally does, and most of all I'm thankful that I have a wonderful savior that continuously forgives me for complaining (among many other things)!


S Huiz said...

Don't worry about complaining- you can't help it when you feel miserable; everything seems miserable I'm sure. I hope these last weeks go by in a flash!

Jennifer said...

I am so sorry that you feel so horrible. I understand what it's like to try and not complain! I was fat, hot and miserable with all three of mine. Especially Jeffrey who also sat right on my sciatic nerve. I guess when you're born weighing 9 lbs 11 oz, there's not a lot of room in there and sitting on my sciatic nerve may have been his only choice. Every step was like a flash of burning pain. And he was so big that he continually kicked the crap out of my rib cage. I hope that you feel better, though your only relief will be birth. It's tough because I was always afraid that if I complained too much I would seem ungrateful, especially to both of my sister in laws who didn't get pregnant nearly as easily as I did. I'll be praying for you!