When we align ourselves with Christ we become the enemies adversary. It's a scary thought. Despite the fact that the enemy has already been defeated by Christ at the cross, he will continue to attack us and keep us from putting our faith in God. We don't need to fight him, but we do need to resist him and his lies daily. When we resist, he flees. (See James 4:7)
Use your weapons, the Holy Spirit, the belt of truth, the body armor of righteousness, shoes of peace, shield of faith, helmet, and your sword (the most powerful weapon of all... the bible) (See Ephesians 6:14-17).
You have prayer, faith, hope, love and the Word of God on yoru side. The Holy Spirit within you is far greater than all the powers of darkness combined. (See 1 John 4:4)
I feel like the enemy is attacking me a lot lately. I get in these slumps where I am just down. Nothing is right or good and I get angry easily. I tend to be able to hide these feelings from the outside world, but my family sees it. And it is not pleasant. I feel bad. I didn't really realize I was feeling or acting this way until this morning when Matt asked me why I was always crabby? Hmmmm.
About two weeks ago I quit taking my sleeping pills to sleep at night. (That is going quite well, sleep, that is). But, because I didn't need anything to sleep, I was no longer forced to take a pill evey night. But that also meant that I didn't take any pills. Including my anti-depressent, Zoloft, which I have been on pretty consistently since Elliot was born. Yikes. Just realized it today, it's probably been two weeks since I've taken one (which would also explain all of the vertigo that I've experienced lately). So, I need to be more deliberate about taking that, because without it, the devil certainly has a way of sneaking in on me, tearing up relationships, making me feel really bad about myself, tearing my whole world down. I realize that pills are not a specific part of the armor of God, but it is a part of my helmet, it helps to protect my mind from doubting God's promises. It is frustrating to know that I still depend on these little yellow pills so much, I was hoping that at some point I would no longer need them, but it is what it is and if they make me a better person, I'll go with it!